Worlds Shortest Blog?

I think I may have to rejoin the light-givers and come in from the darkness. Ah well. It was fun while it lasted. It is really hard to explain how much I just really want to withdraw from society sometimes.

Today was my first court case for a bogus restraining order and the divorce proceedings. It was kind of insane. I am stressed out to the max. It went good though. I feel like there are like a million holes in everything the wife says. I am not going into details here right now but she really wants to bury me. I think it should all work out though. Some of the good things that came out of the meeting are initial visitation and contact rules, split bank accounts, and I have a decent lawyer I think. Oh and my lawyer ... So much hotter than her fat one.

I spent so much time trying to save the kids the pain I had from moving. I actually think that they might still be able to stay in the same school system they are in now. I am pretty sure the wife is staying with a guy. Not positive. Of course she is making it seem like she is all alone and has no support or money. I really hope she is because the best outcome would be them staying in town. I finally have come to the realization that what I have been trying to do is just wrong. It was doomed to fail from the start. I had the best intentions and was going of my personal experiences with the moving thing. It was hell. However my kids are different. If they have to move they might just fit in. If not then they will hopefully learn some things from the experience like I did.

I have a feeling this divorce thing is going to cost a lot. I hope I am wrong because I would much rather spend money on the kids future than this bullshit. However whatever happens I am going to be free to do my own thing and handle things my own way. Even if I make bad decisions like living in my car, at least they are my bad decision. I have a lot to do and a lot of stress. I got the accounts straightened out today, the joint account is being handled as escrow basically with the court ordering the disposition. Not too much in there anyways. Got my mail forwarded to my new mailbox. Opened a new checking with a bank. Deposited my couple hundred I have for the week. Started the process of my direct deposit going to my new account. Things are moving.

Will be up in Josie's neck of the woods next week with the kids for visitation.

Need to make some decisions about where to live. I REALLY don't want to live with my mom. There are VERY good reasons I moved out when I was 18. Also the lawyer advises against it. I do have a friend who I may be able to rent a room from. He is actually moving out in a few months for an army stint and needs to sublet his place.. so if it's available still I might go for it. Otherwise I need to figure something out. Not going to sleep with strange dudes in a halfway house or any stupid thing like that.

Wish me luck.