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I have been stuck in a pit of inability to move. I am trying to figure out why but it's hard. I have so many things I need to do. A quick contract project (a days work for 750 bucks), fixing up things at the house, selling or getting rid of things, reading divorce for dummies... and other things like exercising... and yet I have had no movement for the last two weeks.
I kind of think the problem is that I know this is going to open up a total shit show in my life. I know it is necessary and good... but also part of me knows it is going to be full of pain and suffering for everyone involved for a period of time. After that everything will hopefully come together and everyone will be a lot happier. So subconsciously I am avoiding doing anything. Consciously too.
Hopefully I can get over this rut and stop fucking myself.
On the good side I have been playing 50 pics with Carmel. No you perv Grouchie not dick pics. We have been exchanging pictures of our respective cities and interesting things. I kind of enjoy it. I will post a few pictures I have taken when I get home. A few people have told me that a couple of my pictures are fantastic.. and this is just with an iPhone camera... I may have to get the photo bug like Astin.
One thing I like about the exchange is instead of walking around Boston with my head down I am looking around and trying to see if I can see a new vantage point or something that strikes me. This is very good for my outlook on life I think.