Amazing

I just saw a commercial about a new product. It is making me feel weird. For those of you who do not know I am deaf in one ear. I was born this way. Well, actually, my mother ignored my ear ache and my eardrum ruptured causing me to go deaf. I only recently found out about this. I always though "I was born deaf".

I pride myself with the fact that I cope with this disability. I developed good nod and smile responses when I do not hear what people say. I stay away from loud places like bars. I fool myself into thinking that everything is good. In reality its not the worst handicap one can have.

I have never thought I could heal this. A ruptured eardrum is not fixable. They do have things that go around to the other ear... but this new technology actually transmits the sound waves from one side to the other. In effect you can hear everything coming from the other side.

I am unsure if this would give me "stereo" hearing... if music would suddenly be a much more exciting thing in my life. If some of my social anxiety in group situations would go away now that I could hear what people were talking about. I am however considering looking into this. Probably not right this minute since I have a lot going on.... but once my life gets on track I think this could open a lot of new avenues for me.

It's funny when something you are not looking for comes into your life... and suddenly you wonder about the new possibilities open to you.