We went to a mediator. In some ways I think we could work things through with a mediator. However sometimes it seems that is not the case. For instance, after we got into all the financial stuff, we start talking about the kids. The mediator asked what we thought would be a good agreement. She starts talking and is like "well I don't know if I want them sleeping overnight with him"... and quickly retracts to "oh, well he might not have a 3-bedroom apartment for them".. So I got kind of pissed off and I say "Perhaps it would be best for her to move out and me to keep the kids in the house. I can afford the mortgage without her and then their lives will not be disrupted". Her face turns crimson red and she starts getting angry and yelling at me "If you think your going to keep the kids! Your using your money against me!"..
I actually think it was kind of amusing if not productive. The more I think about it though... and hey, do not blame me for being more successful than you. I grew up in the projects and never went to college, you got Ivy League schooling... even though you had every advantage in life that I did not I made more of my career than you ever will.. Not my problem.
I have concerns about surviving this whole process. Ever time we go someplace to talk to someone my stomach cramps up, I have side pains, back pains, all kinds of pains.. my body really does not like dealing with stress.. it likes avoiding it more... but I can not avoid this any longer. Peace.