I Don't Understand
This year has been weird for me. It's like I am sort of coming out of a long, deep, dark, sleep. I am becoming more involved. A lot more proactive. Today I organized my photo album and named all of the pictures. I need to find some software to organize and tag it still. I was looking through the pictures and enjoying seeing some of the young kid pictures. I then came across one of the few pictures of my dad that I have. It is of him laying on the couch with a scruffy beard and for some reason I just started tearing up.
Now if I was some womanly creature like Josie this would be normal but I am fucking Waffles! Last time I think I shed a tear I was like 12 and five orderlies were holding me down while some doctor dug a nail out of the middle of my foot. I spent all of my teen years not crying. Not feeling anything except anger and regret. Why the fuck am I getting emotional now? Is this menopause or something? Jesus fucking Christ. Peace.