Gahhh I am Going to Die

I swear I am going to die before all this is over. I have such an issue with dealing with confrontation and emotions and all those human like things I have been suppressing for so long. On the sort of good side all this finance talk with the wife has been bringing up a lot of communication. She says she did not realize that she was causing me pain and depression and then she starts crying and shit. Crazy bitches. Anyway it might be the first time in our whole relationship where we are actually, possibly, going to work together on something. I dunno. I am so confused and my back is hurting so bad.. maybe that is my spleen. Arrrgghh!! At least shit is moving somewhere which is better than my avoiding it for the past million years. Peace.