I wanna be better
I told Hoyazo last night that I raised 3xBB, got called by Jenn, the flop came K42, and I proceeded to get crippled by 44 with 12 people left. Actually I had 3k left and brilliantly put a hurting on Donkette with 84o to straggle into 12th place. I went down with K9c when my opponent rightfully called my Hoy with A4o. I flopped the flush draw but was not able to take it home. My last dollar went down with AJc vs Ducks. The ducks jammed the flop to protect my dollar but I was not able to win.
Anyway back to the main topic. Hoyazo was of the opinion that you just get fucked there. Now I respect the hell out of Hoyazo, I really think he is one of the most thinking players out there, but I do not really want to get stacked there. I am of two minds about this.
I hear shit like "Well you just go broke there" all the time. Like Donkeypuncher last night running his Kings into my Aces. The majority of people are like oh well it happens.
In one way I entirely agree with both of those sentiments. I mean MTT play is a huge chunk of skill but also a GIGANTIC amount of good timing AKA LUCK. I understand this and realize I beat myself up about these hands way too often.
On the other hand I think I can be a much better player. I think I can get away from the coolers. I can dig deep and figure out where I am. Last night I almost knocked Vinnay out of the Riverfuckers early when he semi-bluffed his 72o into my 3rd pair. It felt wrong but I did not go with that feeling. Against someone I have played with often enough I should trust that read. The AK hand against some Jenn person last night was the same thing. I had not played Jenn and did not know her well. I had no read that I was ahead or behind to her shove. I just called blind. If I have no read at all I think I need to let it go.
I am pretty psyched about my raw talent and ability to be better. I just need to bring it all together in the action phase and I will fuck some shit up. I will be the guy who folds Kings pre-flop if he knows he is beat and calls off his entire stack with bottom pair if he knows he is ahead. It is all going to come together and then you all will be in trouble.