Wow. The posts I could write today.
I went to my shrink again. This time the one who doles out the medicine. I actually see two separate ones. The druggy and the talker. The druggy and I decided that my medication level was too low. We started at 10mg and gave it like a month or two. So she bumped it up to 20mg.
I have no idea if it is the drugs or what but I am flying high today. The best I can explain it is almost like being drunk. I have to watch everything I say because the flood gates are down and my mouth is in full drive. I almost feel like I have too much energy. My body keeps trying to leech it off a little by moving around and stuff. Is that like the shakes from a meth addict or something? Who the fuck knows.
Normally I think medicine has no effect on me but I am feeling it today. Will keep you all posted. I have actually been playing some poker. Home games with a friend from work. It has been fun. It is more a social thing as we put up 5 bucks and have 5-7 people.. and play an SNG with either 8 or 10 minute blinds. I have done very well breaking even both times I played. Josie would love this game.
I really like my talker shrink. She is kind of weird but she is kind of cool. I feel like she knows things that I do not know. Some secrets of being human. The other day she explained to me that modern psychology is not about delving into your past and bringing up all your bad experiences so much. It is more about learning good methods of dealing with the problems that your hangups are causing you today. Working on coping mechanisms and getting things on track so that your life will improve. It was kind of interesting. Latah!