Sometimes I feel like the blog is getting old. Perhaps I should retire it. It used to be really easy and fun. I feel that way at times still but lately life has been in a holding pattern and most days I have nothing to write. Seriously I doubt most of you are interested in my weight loss or what I ate for lunch. I guess the posts serve a purpose because I equally need to get out my insane excitement over good things and bad.
Life remains in the realm of fucked up but bound to improve. I seriously have dug myself a big hole in the past couple years. It is hard to explain being stuck in a situation where all you can really do is pull into yourself. Especially the past two years have been bad. I have missed more days of work than I like. I let my license run out. I lost my phone. My car died and I never replaced it. I just pulled in on my self like a piece of coal under pressure.
On the good side I think the pressure has cracked and something of a diamond may be showing. I am starting to get things going again. Exercising. Eating better. Trying to pull out of myself and do things like Vegas and the like. I guess I am just kind of anxious to get on with life. It has been too long.