I did the fish. It came out alright. Nothing special. I had it with green beans. So healthy at least. Tonight I can have the awesome chicken and peppers and onions I cooked up.
On the good side I had a great night with my daughter. I am starting to cook up my food and prepare it. She comes over and wants to touch the fish. At first I say no but then agree ONLY IF SHE WASHES HER HANDS AFTER!!! Yes, my daughter is a little strange but I like that.
She then gets more useful and wants to cut the peppers. I am a little scared of giving her a knife as she is only 9! However I suppress my over-protective fathering genes and say alright. I do the initial big cut down the middle, show her how to gut the pepper and remove the seeds and then I show her how to dice the peppers. She ends up making GIGANTIC cubes but it was only her first time. I told her she did great and next time we would work to get them a little smaller. I think we both enjoyed our little cooking adventure together.
Wife was in a total bitchy mood last night. Fuck her. I did not sink to her smelly, filthy level.. I guess I am now but this is my private blog and none of you morons know her! I have to get it out somehow right?
When she got home she yelled at me for using the stove and cooking. She was all like "I did not know I had to reserve the stove, you have not cooked in 13 years".. I then tell her "fine, go ahead and put my pan in the fridge and I will cook it later".. but she says she MUST use that pan to cook on so forget it. I then spend my 10-15 minutes cooking my food and she never ends up cooking hers. See she just wants to bitch. She just comes home and yells and bitches at everyone. What a cunt.
I feel like I am changing and looking to the future and present and she is somewhat understandably stuck in the past. For the past 3-4 months I have been doing a lot of things around the house, with the kids, and fixing the messes left by not facing up to our problems. Every time I do something good she is always "well you never did that before so fuck off". It is a bit frustrating in a way but nothing I can do except keep on doing what is right. Peace.