What is change? Deep and profound change? It is an interesting question. We all make changes in our lives. We force ourselves not to have that second coke. How long do these changes last though? I mean we really WANT that second coke. When do we start not wanting it? For this is the essence of change. I have cut down to one coke a day for like four months now. I still like coke though. I noticed the past week I have cheated a couple of times and gone to two cokes a day. How long until I just say fuck it and buy a case? Die in a coke filled bathtub of debauchery?
I have given up coke in the past. It has not lasted yet. How do you get past the point of forcing yourself not to do something and keeping discipline versus actually not wanting to do something?
Other changes are slightly easier. Like cooking. I enjoy it actually. I like making myself a few meals a week and it is probably marginally healthier than my previous diet of Hungry Man dinners and other assorted frozen fruit.
Some changes I have made for many months. Like training for a 5K. I was a runner for 9-months. The first time I quit I think it was because I got bored. The second time I got hurt. My leg was all fucked up and sore and I just never jumped back into it. Sometimes I quit because it was too cold. I keep coming back to it though. Mostly because I think exercise is a good thing to do, not because I necessarily like it. I do like my rock solid boobs from pushups though. Women should feel them things when I am doing 100 pushups every 3 days. Ahh yeah.
I guess I have not answer for the question of when SHOULD DO becomes something that you just do. Perhaps it is never. The whole point in life could be to be so disciplined that SHOULD DO just IS and you never have an issue with falling back to your old ways. I hope this is not the case because I am not the most disciplined person in the world. I have my moments. Peace.