It's how I roll
I am not playing an April fools joke so if any of you had that in mind get serious. Some people will say it is stupid to limit your bankroll because of a bad night. I disagree and I think it is IMPORTANT. I have been playing poker for a (somewhat) long time but I have not gotten the hand of the whole bankroll thing. A bankroll is there to be a guideline and not a 5 minute stock indicator. A night of poker has so many possible outcomes for even the best players in the world. If you live day by day you will never succeed. So I have resigned myself to Fucktard Poker Hell for a while.
I have every confidence I will get my bankroll up to epic proportions sometime soon but until then I am going to play with the losers of the poker world. With money that means nothing at all. I guess the real reason I cashed out was because I do not want to have a bankroll IF I am not ready to have a bankroll. I refuse to give myself the chance to succeed until I can handle it.
I have no doubt I could repair the damage I did last night very quickly but I roll that way too often. I want the quick fix. I want the instant solution to all of my problems. The easy out. Poker is not about that. So I am going to make myself climb the mountain over and over and over again until I get it right. Instead of losing a few hundred and then maybe tilting again and making 300-400 I decided to cash out some winnings and make myself earn the money the hard way. Not just the couple hundred I dropped but all of it. Once I become capable of having a decent size bankroll I will allow myself to keep it. Until then I am going to keep driving the point home (to myself) that poker is about edges over time and grinding out wins.
Now that I have sent myself to my room and beat up on myself I will say that I think I have grown a little. In the past I would not have stopped with a $200 loss. I would have kept going until I made it all back. I was very close to making it all back last night too. If it was not for a few epic suckouts at 5/10 I would have done it too. That is the main reason you play in your bankroll. The runner-runner 9To straight from a capped pre-flop, and capped flop vs your trip 3’s with an Ace kicker happens. When it does you just have to have the bankroll to survive it. So I will see you guys around on the Fucktard tables. Come and yell at these morons with me and we will all have a good time.
On a side note. I had an interesting time playing PLO this afternoon. It is much easier for me to asses my hand in a PLO game than a PLO8 game. I also do not have to share. I flopped the nut flush and nut straight draws with a K on the board. I bet out HUGE against the set that turned QUADS. I should have stopped there but oh well. In Omaha when the board pairs quit drawing or bluffing. It would have been hard to take the 3K loss but I would have at least been in the game still. I berated the no-class opponent of mine for slow rolling me at the end. No way you do not insta-call quads. I am sorry but that just shows no-class and no respect for the game. You sir are the real loser. Until next time. Peace out.